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I am the shy type. This kind of girl that’s the loudest on a party – bare your teeth before you get bitten. But when the conversations change over to emotional topic I am the first one to leave the bunch, right before the first tears start to fall. Showing weakness in front of people I barely know? Never! Huge personalities make me feel uneasy and my answer: arrogance. The moment I whip my hair back and throw a cheeky „I know that I look good“ at you and your compliment – that’s the moment you placed me in dilemma. Showing that something affects me feels like a flaw in the first second. And I remember every one of these moments – for my entire life. Because after I rack my brain, if I was too harsh. This constant pulling between „overthinking“ and „keeping people at distance“ also tears my ego. You don’t want to be the group’s prick, but you also actually don’t want to be just „a part“ of the group.

But my worst attribute? I always appear as a pair! I feel touched and astonished regarding the #metoo campagne and marvel at all those amazing and brave women and men that pluck up courage, to speak the pain they’ve experienced. I want to mention a difficult topic too, that affects many girls, maybe it doesn’t seem as painful as sexual assault or any kind of violence in the first moment, but it shaped my past 25 years (my entire life till now) in a negative way. I always appear as a pair! Ever since I can remember my life centres around my live-in lover. My prince charming who will enter my life and save me. But from what? The important and big moments in my life were overshadowed by lovesickness. Either I was looking for Mr. Right, had to handle a break-up, was unhappy in my actual relationship or analyzed whatsapp messages with my friends. When everything was perfect (as perfect as it can be) in my love-life I throw myself in my friend’s love-life and crises. WE always appear as a pair! In case I don’t hold Mr. Right’s hand, it’s my best friend’s hand I hold while suffering with her. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate Armor and I had many lovely moments in relationships and shared beautiful times with lovers. And I don’t want to miss any of those moments and hope to experience many more.

But I’m not sure, if these moments weren’t even worse. Because a partner and relationship can turn into some kind of handbreak without noticing it. I catch myself checking my boy’s appointment diary before I confirm a party on the weekend. Banish dream-destination slowly but surely just because „the other one“ is broke and you don’t want to travel on your own. You don’t move to your dream-city or take a job/ university place, because you don’t want to break up or be separated. You pass on a beloved pet, because your partner doesn’t like cats, wear THIS special skirt, because the other gender prefers it more on your body and watch series that you don’t even like. Short – you live your life for others.
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Why did he cancel the date? Why didn’t he keep in mind what my birthday present wish was? Why does he spend exactly this day with his mates? And you analyze every trifle till it turns into huge heartache. Do my friends like him? Do I still have friends after I only exist as a „we“ (me and my partner)? And most of all: Why doesn’t he pick me up at night? That one time I came home late, this racked my brain. It wasn’t the fear to be ambushed, that boosted my thoughts, but my pure fury. Why does he assume that I could come home at night on my own? Whose fault is it that I always expect, that my partner takes care of me everytime and that I take care of him nonstop? That I need all these instagramable love confessions and compare myself to others without even contemplating what I truly want and need. Put others wellbeing over mine, not because of unconditional love but as some type of pawn – to demand it back during times like this.

I push myself (unknowingly) into the position of a little, helpless girl. I’m disappointed when my partner doesn’t fret over me, solves my problems, doesn’t answer directly on my whatsapp messages. My luck is depending on him!

It used to bother me, that my partner didn’t fret over me. I hated that he didn’t wish he’d known I was hurting so he could drive hours to get me and that he didn’t promise to never let me go anywhere alone again. But now I grasp, that this was a gift, too. Independence! And I denied this independence with my attitude slowly but steady. But I promise you, your partner knows that even if things go wrong for you often, you’ll always be okay in the end. Because he belives in you and you should do so, too! And now I tell you – men – don’t fight the dragons and rescue us from the tower. Hand us the sword and tell us „I’m here for you, but you’ve got this.“ We like being rescued. We like the sympathy and the cosiness of being wrapped in cotton wool. But you don’t have to be „needed for help“ for us to love you. And we don’t have to be „in need of help“ to be loved. And I tell you – women – it’s not normal or romantic to be in need of your partner. And slowly you will learn, what it’s like to be okay on your own. You don’t need to become someone’s better half, because you are no half.

Go girl!
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But completely different.
Who’s just the way you always wanted to be, but acts and feels the same way you do.
Imagine you describeing this someone and painting him with your thoughts and heart.
And imagine, you meet this human.
The moment you talk about this someone, he enters your life. Unexpected.

It feels like dancing. Like an optical illusion, that you feel and don’t see.
Together you defy the laws of physics and time. And it feels like flying, without the fear of hitting the ground.
Because nothing seems to scare you anymore and still you fear everything.
Every place turns into a „home“, just because you are together.
And even when you are separated, your thoughts open a way back to togetherness.

Imagine, you meet someone, with whom this earth’s rotational axis feels a little less sloping.
And let’s stay with physics, that feels so good and petty at the same time.
Someone, who gifts you energy and doesn’t steal it.
Someone, who makes you feel brave and inspires you, the wind beneath your wings.
Someone who shows you, that it’s quiet okay to be „yourself“, even more – shows you that this „yourself“ is kinda pretty.
Someone who laughs hearty and cries with you.
Who likes you apparently. For who you are.
With more flaws than infallibility.
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Someone, by whom you feel secure.
One single, timeless ecstasy and the feeling, that everything is possible, but the best thing is to do nothing and to just enjoy the here and now – together.
Imagine, you meet someone, whose hand you want to hold and run through darkness.
Two heads filled with nonsense.
And two hearts in one universe. Different and yet the same.

Imagine you meet someone, who does you the world of good.
Someone, you want to tell, how much you missed them in your life, even during a time, you didn’t know each other. And still – there are no words strong and no moment beautiful enough, to express this feeling of pure love.
To express that you doubt to ever meet someone like this someone again.
Nobody will be like this someone.
Nobody, who’s comparable.
Comparable attractive, comparable creative, comparable inspiring, comparable relieving.
A revolution in your heart and head and still it’s pure harmony.
Always a bit happier with – always a bit more lost without.
This someone. Without whom you don’t want to be.

Imagine, you meet someone.
You meet this someone.

And now imagine, this someone isn’t yet ready for it.
Not yet ready for
You.

*But this time I will follow this someone, his way will become mine and when he turns around, I will be there.
I will never leave you walk your path alone and carry you on winding parts.
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First of all, I hope you got an catchy tune while reading the blogpost. Sorry not sorry.
To be honest, I didn’t really WALK to the castle neither in those overknees nor in the High Heels, but not because the shoes are uncomfortable.
I think it’s time for some realtalk.
‘Cause since my everyday life is a chill mix of marveling at beautiful printerest pictures and color-arranging my breakfast. Seems like I lost my grip on reality.
Castle Eltz (the amazing castle in the background) has been on the top of my travel bucket list for quiet a long time. This place regularly breaks diverse instagram-like records and is only a stone’s throw from here. Tell me again, why I’ve never been there?
Well, finally I went to the pretty Rhineland-Palatinate for a shooting trip (ok, I was never in Rhineland-Palatine before and I only claim, that it’s beautiful there).
But I can tell you the castle is definetly NOT instagrammable. A short trip, parking directly in front of the castle’s gate, posing perfectly? An unpeopled and unproblematic sceney? Getting the one and only instagrammable shot within seconds?
Think again!
Because, before you enter the castle you have to walk…20 minutes…steeply downhill…that’s not the worst thing but you have to climb (or in my case – crawl) up the hill on your way back, puh.
But I can comfort you, there is a shuttlebus during the opening hours.
Well, I wasn’t that fortunate!
This „walking“ is so 2017, I nearly unlearned that as a fashionblogger. And even though the boots (and also the heels) are extremly comfortable, wild horses couldn’t drag me there….in my new shoes!
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I found both pairs in the online fashionstore I’m walking and these two pairs of shoes show the huge product line perfectly. You can get everything you need as a fashion-addict and more items to put your closet’s capacity to an acid test there. No matter if you love petty designer heels or premium gumboots (definetly the better choice for such a trip – maybe next time), you find it all in the store.
Boots, pumps, sneaker and ssssshh you don’t only get shoes there.
Just in case you need more motivation to click yourself a way to the shop – the new spring collection is just beautiful.

I wear the Tom Tailor Overknees in a brown, used leather look and I love it.
Who has been following me for some time now knows, that I hate my knees and try to hide them in every look. That’s why I’ve been hunting for the perfect overknees for years now. Seems like I found my dream-boots! The inner material is so extremly soft and snuggle up against your leg perfectly. The cut is a dream and I fell in love with the used-look.
An absolute highlight is, that you can wear the shoe as an overknee or turned-down as a boot.
Another highlight is, that the boot has a lovely cuban heel. My tip for everyone, who wants longer legs – at least optically. Furthermore cuban heels are extremly comfortable and the perfect choice, if you want to wear the shoes during the entire day.

Insider-Tip: You get the Overknees now for half the price. Grab it, or you will regret it.
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There is simply no Fashion-No-Go with this pretty shoe.
In the same time the striped straps are really eyecatching and give you extra footing, plus ensure a unique wearing comfort.

The pumps are my secret summer-must-have and I am pretty sure it’s because of the cool shape. The price is quiet alright for a designer-heel. And how cool is it to be able to say „well, I have a pair of designer-shoes in my closet.“

For me it was extremly exciting to create 2 different looks and this is what represents the store the best. There is something for everybody (women, men, children) and for every taste in fashion.
Take a look and most of all – visit caste eltz!
Not only for instagrammable pictures 😉

*thank you  I’m walking for the kind cooperation
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